Today is my birthday and it is really hitting me that I won't get my annual phone call from my father on my birthday .Since so many years i used to get his blessing and wishes early morning .I am so lucky to have had a father that cared so much and who always told me how he proud of me . I am missing his love and his blessings. He was such a special person .
My birthday, the first of many which I will be without father.
Well it feels like I've hit rock bottom again these past couple of weeks coming up to my birthday. I have been feeling really low and missing him so much.
My father was and remains my hero, my rock, my best friend . It still doesn’t. How do you put one foot in front of the other when the ground beneath you is crumbling? How do you speak when unshed tears claw at your throat?His heart was too big. He trusted too much, loved too much, and worked tirelessly to make everyone around him happy and the world is lonely without him in it.
I am looking at my phone ,by miracle i would get a call from him......... Any time feeling of deep sadness and sorrow starts from bottom of my heart like a cramp in stomach ,reach to the corner of eyes ,and hidden tears starts shedding....... ..slowly coming out of that black cloud and getting on with life. .... . He will not call me again.He is in peace away from all calls.

— feeling missing.